/b/ - Baltic/Random

extroverted autists like trappychan are rare especially ones that are truly extroverted not just nulled socially so they appear extroverted i have no idea how they act in real life so i might be wrong here you can think of many different mood and personality disorders that would push an autist into true extrovertism might be wrong but i think you arent looking for a 1step autist either btw whats trappychans thoughts on miku brazil 18 :^)

I think they are extroverted because they are hot, so they only get the positives of it. But I wouldn't know if they are.

>because they are hot from my understanding thats not being extroverted but instead bold and confident different trait of trappychan lol

Isn't that the same thing?

>>2420 consider the following.

>>2435 they arent defining traits of extraversion but what extraversion can look like an introvert can be bold and confident too even socially yet theres a huge difference of how the foundations define being bold and confident trappychans bold and confidence could be signs of extraversion or could be something else about trappychan its possible for an extrovert to not be bold and confident even socially yet still love being the centre of attention and have a huge social network >>2437 i already do this,,ba,a, except the sissy hippo and job i have cute hobbies instead and not the same name everywhere too lazy big idoit

>>2438 I think you are lying.

>>2439 well go research it yourself lazy bum <from my understanding

How do I build that confidence so that I can charm up an real life anime woman as an introvert then?

aaaa ahahaa i think you need to ask urself if that anime gorl is really into introverts first then take the traits you have thats shes also into into your heart and maximize them naturally

So what you're saying is I can't get an anime woman then?

you can just please dont go for "idol"s you know nothing about the real them if you are asking these questions "idol"s that are the same at base level are 1 in a trillion idk maybe you are just asking me how to get to the point of making love to them not get them as actual romantic partners

Isn't that harder than being romantic? I accept that my idol worship is one directional.

fake romance is easier but it will hurt severely idolcel troonautisti chaser teheehe with this garbage reality i wont sprout fake epithets like true love but wtf are you doing

Meanie don't laugh at me! >:( I had a "situationship" once I'm not totally hopeless. Not sure what you mean by "wtf are you doing" THOUGH.

>>2451 lool okkkie swrrie im basically saying its true completely falling into apathy is the wrong choice with you you are willing to try and have the desire but please be aware of the inaneity here think you should go for the "aliens" option but i dont know much about that one

>>2452 I don't know any aliens. There's demons in my house that's kind of close but they are very scary and mostly rottweilers (not attractive). That's a very cute image you posted though, is that you? ;)

you should use the "situationship"s you get into to actively probe without coming off as a chaser or creep thats if you must really go for "idol"s saying you are both autistic i think you might have the upper hand with the knowledge alone otherwise you are likely to come off as a chaser or creep without further training and knowledge

>>2453 no thats the idea me and "god" thought of who you posted as an anime cat gorl see "god" is vary funny and bitch too that hit my favorite tree that wasnt anywhere close to lightning with a bolt and now its dead and gone hmpf >but they are very scary and mostly rottweilers (not attractive) possibly if you give them a chance and keep pushing they can form into anime girls but i dont know how well that will work for a schizo

ive never heard of a schizo that has developed into schizoshittyness going to schizoniceness is that even possible i dont have a single idea

My tulpa went very successful until it turned on me, and more recently I was visited by Misaki-chan N.H.K. and she agreed to be my girlfriend but then I stopped drinking and she gradually stopped appearing to me. :( I really miss when she would cuddle me to sleep protecting me from the scary beings when I was going to bed. She tried to save me from my hikikomori disease but as I still couldn't go anywhere even trying for her she eventually got disappointed in me, this was around the time she stopped showing up in my life. But she never hurt me, she was anything but harmful to me, only very very nice, like how I wish real people could be like to me.

>and she agreed to be my girlfriend but then I stopped drinking and she gradually stopped appearing to me. :( i dont like saying this but you need to stop using your schizo as a crutch for tulpas by "aliens" i mean things that are external enough your schizophrenia wouldnt override them or you doing something like no longer drinking i think you can differ enough now keep grabbing on nothing and you will likely get an "alien" attached to you just dont get a "negative" one idgi tbh >like how I wish real people could be like to me. only your perception matters until you get what that means you cant make yourself delusional enough other perceptions can be used as a tool and theres a mutual agreement for sharing other perceptions delusions that normallithuanians forget and get into a neurosis about that makes them hostile by default

That's true about the perceptions but it's easier said than done to take the charge on these things. Also Misaki-chan was not a tulpa she just showed up one day. By that definition of alien I could do that I suppose, but I really don't have as much control over my mind as I used to. u_u

>but it's easier said than done i never said this was easy and recommenced against it for you >but I really don't have as much control over my mind as I used to. u_u what is the mind well anyway if you go "external" enough it should be good idk tbh dont have clue how this works just that it somehow works for me have to wonder what your misaki-chan really was before your "mind" malformed it

I think she was just the normal empty void. Each week for about 4 or 5 months now my brain has been coming up with a new way to try and force me into getting my life together, but with little success. After Misaki disappeared she was followed by a week of intense nightmares showing how my near future is going to end up if I keep going down this path I'm in (prison and other filth essentially). I think Misaki was probably the most successful one though because I made promises to her and atleast tried.

Initially when I was having alcohol withdrawls the little discolorations I'd see in my vision in blank space would turn into images of her and I think my mind started to fill in the rest from there even after withdrawls.

>>2463 >I think she was just the normal empty void then she didnt just appear and you just formed a void as you are now saying in this post >Each week for about 4 or 5 months now my brain has been coming up with a new way to try and force me into getting my life together yes torturing yourself works im not being edgy here it does not easy to pull off either do i recommend it idk can you break something thats already broken >>2464 thats one way to go about it but not a good idea drugs as a crutch means eventual tolerance or death

>>2465 I have a long term drug addiction so it wouldn't be anything new.

>>2468 that just makes it worst hope youre prepared for death and dont spiral into a bad trip while dying

>>2469 <but im not taking hallucigenics what bad trip you see thats the thing while you die your mind is taking tons of hallucigenics it made itself its thought that whatever it causes your delusional "mind" to get is where you will spiral to into the "afterlife" and i doubt you can gain tolerance of that garbage either youd take enough to die before gaining enough tolerance from the flood which your mind does

>>2469 I'm prepared for death, but none of my overdoses ever killed me. Hospitalized? Yes. Paralyzed? Yes. Ill? Yes. Coughing up blood? Yes. But killed? No.

they say good things take effort well if you really want to go the drugz route that means holding off so you dont build tolerance thinking something like about a week of misaki-chan and a month without whatever drugs are best for little to no tolerance building and minimize the amount of time it takes to lose that tolerance are the best option for you there

>>2471 I can't die I've been cursed to walk the mortal realm for generations upon generations, suffering but not dying. I have had some continued relations with the spiritual realm since this punishment but it only made it clearer, I don't see a way out. I'm in a form of "hell" spiritually and physically but I'm mapped physically onto the typical mortal plane here, somewhat like the planets in Dante's Paradiso.

>>2472 tolerance takes time and stupidity honestly i just jumped on that lole >>2473 really dont think its a good option but if ur prepared for death eh why not seems easier than most options

>>2474 go for spite and make yourself delusional into heaven i suppose

>>2476 I'm trying spite but I can't truly break free of the suffering, that's part of the curse.

>>2477 so long as you believe so you cant make the delusions work you must also maul your prison wardens like the unconscious mind into believing the curse doesnt exist im not saying that as an empty epithet that everyone does but its really how delusions are and if i had to be correct drugs wont save you here and might even make it harder to reach its giving into this reality yet another prison warden for you you are not nearly crazy enough is what im saying infact you shouldnt let into human text or thought constructs like this it should be considered poison

>>2478 This is not delusion this is the actual spiritual limits imposed upon me. The delusions may or may not be a part of it and may help things, but the curse wont allow them to break me free of it.

>>2480 the delusions to fuel the spite against the spiritual limitations bucko >the curse wont allow them to break me free of it. no such thing see delusions

>>2480 >>2481 consider this the next time you have a "spiritual interaction" where you are "forced" to "believe" the curse exists i doubt the "creator" cares there might be some lowercased "god" that cares but a creator thats just human ego im a petri in a dish not good enough lets go again theres a bunch of retarded "aliens" showing me flashly lights again let me turn off my perception and ignore them its completely worthless anyway the concept is easy but pulling it off is hard nigga its just words on a screen dont look at it lol but it looks easy so you look like a clown tbg i just got numbed to that the alternatives dont lead anywhere so its pointless to not be numb can you interact and truly connect with a rock

>>2482 There is no creator figure, you clearly don't understand the spiritual realm. I'm also not forced to believe such a thing exists, I just discovered it, and spiritual interactions helped me piece together more details. >can you interact and truly connect with a rock Yes.

>>2483 i dont know any spiritual realm or physical realm >Yes. you clearly cant if you believe in human thoughtform constructions like this

>>2484 The spiritual realm is not a human thoughtform, the logical human mind is what acts against the concept. Man used to be in tune with his spiritual side, but the oversocialization and disconnect from nature of industrial society ended that. Most people need to re-enlighten themselves again. It takes practice and effort for modern man to switch their mind over to the spiritual as opposed to the "logical" (primate brain).

>>2485 >The spiritual realm is not a human thoughtform idk is to me and my perception and thats all that matters all "spiritual interaction" ive had has only proved its anything but same for a physical realm no im using scare quotes on "creator" for a reason but it was lost on you those "examples" have a purpose but you rather have an ego you certainly dont have lock you into a curse that certainly exists but i dont know you so i cant give you advice you certainly arent the idolcel i was shitposting with earlier and from what i understand they want me to not interact with you to me you cant connect with the logos of a rock let alone understand how that would nullify the concept of curses its not natures rocks you should be connecting with here and rock was a lazy metaphor >Man used to be in tune with his spiritual side man is a delusional concept to me same with a physical and spiritual side >disconnect from nature of industrial society ended that. my nonexistent primate brain delusion says man is nature and thus industrial society is nature is a superset unable to connect with its sets a failure to your uh "natural spiritual brain" >for modern man to switch their mind over to the spiritual as opposed to the "logical" (primate brain). delusions made by "man"s thoughtforms including the need to "switch" or even have a "mind" artificial limits (a curse) made by "believing" in those thoughtforms maybe you really cant do what im saying and therefor i never knew you

You are clear duluded, it's sad.

but of course this isnt about spiritual views its about delusions and you refuse to use delusions so its moot

You're clearly lost.

whats this you >>2481

What?